Janelle Brown Admits Double-Edged Pain Of Looking Back

While Sister Wives is a treasure trove for fans to find jewels from the past, there are times that it is difficult to relive memories. Undeniably, Janelle Brown cherishes her family. In many ways, she has sacrificed her dreams in the past to help facilitate the family’s desires. But she is turning a new leaf now with the pursuit of her new business. However, she expresses that looking back at times is a gift laced with pain.

Janelle Brown Lets Go

Undeniably, this year has been an emotional rollercoaster for Janelle Brown. Many fans have cheered her on as she finally left Kody Brown along with Meri and Christine‘s exit. Although each of the women is finding their footing after ending the plural marriage, Janelle is proving history doesn’t define her. She is letting go of the past and trudging forward. But she certainly appreciates many of the beautiful moments that have occurred in their family over the years. Having six children with Kody was a blessing for her. And she has enjoyed seeing them grow. However, in March, Janelle faced the horrific tragedy of burying her 25-year-old son, Garrison Brown. Although she asks herself difficult questions about his passing, she always comes back to knowing she loved him dearly and always will. Now, she is sharing the bittersweet pain of looking back.

Janelle Brown – Sister Wives

Janelle Brown Admits Double-Edged Pain Of Looking Back

Undoubtedly, Janelle Brown’s grief will last a lifetime. However, she is determined to find joy even though she had to say “goodbye” to Garrison Brown far too soon. On Instagram, Janelle Brown talks about a double-edged sword of memories. She says, “My phone serves me up memories every day. Often they are pictures with Garrison.” While she loves seeing these memories, they always are accompanied by the harsh sting of not having future opportunities with her son.

Janelle Brown and Patches and Garrison Brown and Catthew – Instagram

She says, “On good days (and today is a good day!) they make smile because I remember the event and that it was a fun day.” But Janelle is honest about her sorrow which often overshadows the beauty of the memory. She adds, “There is always a bittersweet after glow but it’s still a good thing to see these time capsules.” Even with the pain, she soaks in the sweet cherished time she spent with Garrison. Although it is a beautiful gift to see photos from the past, it still cuts deep.